I am not sure how to word this to a lot of strangers, but, I am looking for help. I just had a woman I thought loved me for six years cheat on me then leave, slander me, and pretend I don't exist. I am lost, broken, confused, and I can't find anywhere that feels like home anymore. I feel ...pathetic writing this out, but I honestly don't know what to do, so I am reaching out to places I used to love, I used to feel comfortable. I met her in FFXIV and now I cannot look at that game without feeling sick. I don't want to go into too much detail to drive everyone off, so some info about me.
I'm 38, and I really don't do much but play games. I have been medically retired for a while now from my service in the Navy, and I have forgotten what I even like in life. I'm not big into memes, but I do love to joke and have fun and chat. I really love to be with people, I am not the kind of person made to be by themselves. I believe I am on tarnished coast, I love all sorts of content, pvp, pve, RP. I am not a negative person, and love to help people out. Love to share knowledge. Love to do whatever people would like, just to hang out. I just feel like I'm old, being phased out, and there's no one else out there like me anymore. I'm just trying to connect =(
I know it's not very manly, and sort of sad, and again, I feel like a baby for posting this, but I am at the end of my rope =(